Friday, November 03, 2006
3rd week le... things in school are alright i guess... i talk to my mentor on wed... told him i don't wanna be class rep... maybe it seem small but i really don't wanna be... more responibility... he say he will consider... i really hope he can let me go... today got meet mentor session... talk about result... he never talk about the class rep thing i also never bought it up... went ck... found out i really lost when coaching new patterns... seems like i don't know how 2 teach well... felt so sad... but i train up my coaching skill... i fightning is only do my best... e only way i can do well is through cocahing le ba (i guess)... thought of something lately... i am a loser brother... i have a younger sister & brother (my father side)... still my sis & bro... but i don't even know their names... i guess they also don't know who i am... next year my god brother getting marry... maybe can see my father & his children... i really want them 2 know who i am... i really want them 2 accept me sia... i have never the feeling when sis or bro call u... when sis or bro tell u how they feel (got friend tell me how they feel but i really wanna help my own bro & sis)... ofcouse friends are still important 2 me (so if u guys got anything don't know what 2 do, u guys can still ask me about it. i may not be able 2 help but i am a great listener, i guess)... but i really wanna feel how it is 2 help ur own bro & sis... my goal in life... do my best 2 let my little sis & bro 2 accept me... i may not be a very good guy... but i still want them 2 accept me... i also don't know use what 2 let them accept me... haha... maybe just use my heart ba... thats for now... b
9:16 AM...Peace
Ruban Chua Hong Sheng
19 Leo
Easy going guy
Family
Bros
Friends
TKD
Pool
Read comic (Doraemon)
Movies
Nothing i can think of
Been through much
See through much
Did stupid things
Learn from stupid things
Hope for peace
Not just world peace, but personal peace
Family comes first
Bros, movie pals and child hood friends are important
TKD is part of my life
Sleep everyday soundly without regret is my dream