Wednesday, June 27, 2007
week 5 in SCS... office job de work is never ending de... i am really really really very tired... this should be a long post... quite moody this few days... i asked myself what have i lost? or should i ask, after this 19 years what have i gain?
it was fate that i was borned into my family... my father leave us when i was small... but i had lots of love from my mum, grandma & aunt... i am really lucky to have them...
when i was still small, my mum will bring me to her friend's home (aunt chris) once a week... there i felt more love... all the aunties all really treat me like a son... their childrens grew up with me... a group of friends from childhood & it really felt great... although now i don't see them so offen but still they will always be my brothers & sisters...
get to know more friends in regent... only yu & huat i truely treasure... although i really want to know what i am to them... haha... guess i already know the answer ba... 7 years of friendship sia... but 1 other friend really let me very disappointed... what more can i do...
lastly is someone whom i known not very long... if i really asked the question "what am i to you?", i will really want to ask her... she is special to me... everyone knows that... but what am i to her?? a clown? a joker? just a cup of tea? told her to give me time to prove that i will be the right one for her... till now i did nothing at all... i don't know how to prove... lolz... really don't know... just hope i am not a pest or something as bad to her... what am i to her??? well she is someone i will like to be with no matter what happens... but am i what she is to me? hard question...
what am i to everyone? just a normal son? a normal big brother? a normal friend? a normal guy in her life? being normal & live my life simple is nice but it will be better if i am special... i really want to know what i am... what have i lost... what have i gain... if you guys read this & feel like answering, just leave it in the chatbox or msg me ba... what am i to her...
life goes around in a circle... thats what i know for a very long time... you come & you go... you gain & you lost... just make sure you did your best when it was your turn... just make sure you fight for things you don't wanna lost... just make sure to lock your doors when you are going out... lolz... now i am crapping... haha... what am i to you?
thats for now... b
5:24 PM...Peace
Ruban Chua Hong Sheng
19 Leo
Easy going guy
Family
Bros
Friends
TKD
Pool
Read comic (Doraemon)
Movies
Nothing i can think of
Been through much
See through much
Did stupid things
Learn from stupid things
Hope for peace
Not just world peace, but personal peace
Family comes first
Bros, movie pals and child hood friends are important
TKD is part of my life
Sleep everyday soundly without regret is my dream